I remember a situation at work that didn’t bring me peace. It kept running through my mind and I couldn’t let go of some of the things that had happened at work. I kept thinking about the mess that was taking place and I couldn’t find peace. One person was involved in this chaotic situation and I couldn’t stop thinking about the person’s actions and how they were impacting my colleagues and me. Overthinking was in full swing and I knew I had to do something about it. Overthinking takes you down a rabbit hole where all you find is more reasons to think and think and the thinking is never positive. What bothered me the most was that I strongly believed that the Lord should occupy most of my thoughts and it wasn’t happening. It was as if I had given His seat to someone who didn’t deserve it. I was putting a situation above Him and that didn’t feel right and it wasn’t right. I recall how the Holy Spirit tried to bring me back to Him a few times but the misery I was in had a strong appeal. It made me believe that the more I focused on it the more likely I would be to find a situation. Misery likes company so with those thoughts came doubt and fear and a general feeling of being lost. Then during prayer, I saw the Lord as a Shepherd with His sheep. He is our Shepherd and as the amazing Shepherd that He is, He doesn’t let His sheep go astray. He would leave the 99 to go find you if you were the only lost. I was lost and I was uncomfortable in my spiritual skin so to speak. I couldn’t fully embrace my relationship with the Lord and it made me feel itchy in my spirit.
During that moment when I prayed and I had a vision of the Lord on the inside, what I saw the most was a smile. I saw a radiant smile that lit up my mind. It was so big and so strong that I felt comforted. I knew it was the Lord. I was lost and distant but He wasn’t mad at me. He was smiling and inviting. He is not the kind of Shepherd that scolds you and grounds you when He finds you after you have gone missing. His smile brought me back to Him. His inviting kindness drew me back in. He showed me love when I showed Him nothing. Overthinking is like telling the Lord “Sorry I don’t have time for You. Let me brood over my circumstances and spend my energy on something else.” I was giving Him the cold shoulder and He was ready to carry me on His shoulders and bring me back to where He was, to where peace was. I was lost and I couldn’t see Him. He knew where I was and the whole time I was away, He was right there with me. Peace was right there but I chose to ignore it. I chose to turn away from it. I magnified the problem and minimized the solution.
The Lord’s message was clear. His message was that I would find peace again. My mind was foggy but He had better weather coming my way. How did I get out of the fog? How did I get back to peace? I told Him I was sorry I got in my head and got in my own way. I told Him I needed help and He was the only One who could rescue me. I prayed. I spoke and I listened. What I heard was “Peace I give to you. Not the way the world gives you peace but I have peace that surpasses all understanding. Let go of your understanding. Let Me give you what you need.” God always knows what we need way before the need every existed. I was longing for peace. I found it in Him. I had to refocus and reposition my thinking. Praise is what did it for me. The Lord is in our praises. When we honor Him and exalt Him, He comes in with peace that tears down fear and worry. I got my mind to be actively thinking about Him again through praise. I spent time in the Word and surely, I found peace again. I hope my testimony encourages you to go to the source of peace if you are going through a time of unrest. Let the Lord stay on the throne of your mind. The good Shepherd loves you and He will bring you back to Him. You will find peace again!
Suggested reading: John 14:27; Philippians 4:7; Colossians 3:15